Robin

Upcoming Movie Night and other crap...

2009-02-24T02:33:26Z

For those few of you who live in and around the gump, this Sat the 28th is the AUM Gay Straight Alliance movie night, showing the Rocky Horror Picture Show and other random comedy/horror flicks. You don't have to be an AUM student or gay to come. :) Should be a good time though, I'm quite looking forward to it. Let me know if interested.

In other news, Dustin Lance Black's acceptance speech for winning best original screenplay nearly made me cry. ;_; On a day when I was feeling rather depressed at the idea of trying to make any sort of difference in a black hole like Montgomery, AL, I hear something absolutely inspiring in so many ways, something small, but something that makes me want to get up and keep trying.

Without hope, life is not worth living. You gotta give em hope.

2008-12-29T05:30:39Z

Ok, I just made my first 30-second Robot Chicken-esque video clip using the glorious Windows Movie Maker...and I'm totally addicted. XD

And "Milk" is a totally fucking awesome movie. I figured it would be good, but I was really blown away by Sean Penn's performance, as well as their method of story-telling, and the vintage feel to the whole thing. I love how they wove real footage throughout the movie. I saw Valkyrie as well, and between these two based-on-a-true-story-with-a-shitty-ending movies, I have to say I like the way they did Milk better. And now I really really really need to get a copy of Randy Shilts' book on Harvey Milk. And can I say that it was really incredibly creepy how the religious fundamentalists of the 70s were saying the exact same thing that they are saying today? About how gays will "destroy families" and the like. But as Lewis Black says, the only way gay people can destroy families is by sneaking into their homes at night, barging in on their nice family dinners, and proceeding to fuck each other in the ass. That is how wholesome American families are destroyed!

"If you were gay, that'd be ok!"

2008-12-26T19:04:49Z

And WHY did I not know that Avenue Q was in Bham last Sunday???

cibeleanjo @ 2008-12-24T01:03:00

2008-12-24T07:03:58Z

Barren human wasteland where people would spit on you as soon as look at you, or a close minded place where nothing changes and nothing stimulating ever happens.

Does it have to be one or the other? Is there no medium ground? And if I had to choose, what would I pick? :P I just have this intense yearning for something new, something amazing, something that blows my mind. I used to have those experiences....

Maybe I should stop bitching and look a little more deeply into where I am now. Maybe I could find what I was looking for, in places I wouldn't expect. Yes, maybe. If I could be open to it like that. Some places I really just don't *want* to delve into. It's a fine line.

And I had a lovely lovely time with Bevin tonight!! Despite getting hit on by the slutty guy and subsequently feeling like I needed to shower immediately.

HELP! NEED YOUR OPINIONS ON MY GSA DESIGN!!!!!!!!1111 [edited]

2008-12-06T05:19:04Z

Okay my dear friends, I need your honest opinions. This is the design I've come up with so far for the new Gay Straight Alliance @ AUM. This is for bulletin board, and the graphic might go on some flyers and stuff too. I'm trying to make it hip and modern and appeal to a wide audience. I want it to be vastly different from the rainbows and pink triangles that were on the bulletin board for months beforehand. I'm kind of taking my cue from http://www.thenewgay.net/ here, kind of the next generation I guess. Our group's goal is to be a place for GLBTQ-ers, but also to try and bridge the gap between them and the straight community, so I don't want to go scaring anyone away. And I want us to be taken seriously, not some half-assed thing (with bad design taste at that). (And of course I suck at vector art, but I'm trying.) So anyways, I need to know your reaction to this image, what it comes across as for you. I really don't want to put up something that is crappy or gives off the wrong vibe or something.

http://vengefullobster.com/iStock_000002648382Large2woman.jpg
[edited to include Krissy's feedback]

Any feedback you can give me would be appreciated!

Hiding in the dark of the matinee once more...

2008-11-23T06:51:28Z

So I just uploaded like a 3 1/2 hour playlist of Franz Ferdinand remixes, live sets and b-sides. That should keep me busy while I painty paint paint all week! I love them, my bffs.

Tonight we went to Five Guys, Burgers & Fries for the first time. Pretty good, reminded us of In-N-Out, but not quite as awesome. Still, they had the fresh ingredients thing going on. And while we waited in line for 15 minutes, I read the various glowing reviews from magazines around the country (they were plastered all over the walls). And I was suddenly struck by a longing to be in another state. Laura is here visiting for Lizzy's weddin', and she keeps talking about how we need to move up there to hippie-land, NC. Now Joe and I both liked the Chapel Hill area. But I'm not about to pick up and move now that I've got a good thing going at AUM. I thought that maybe we could be content in Montgomery for a while, could relax a bit and build a little place for ourselves here (socially and culturally speaking). But tonight, feeling that twinge of wanderlust, I wondered if it wouldn't be long before we became incredibly bored and NEEDED to move. *shrug* I dunno. If I can get my ass in gear and become a good designer, maybe I could find myself a place in a cool area. Not *too* far away though. :P

And Bolt is a very cute movie. And coming out of it in the midst of the Twilight crowd, I dubbed Bolt the "anti-Twilight" movie, and that made me happy.

I've decided these are the older songs that of Montreal had BETTER PLAY:
She's a Rejecter
Gronlandic Edit
Eros' Entropic Tundra
Wraith Pinned to the Mist (and Other Games) <---yes this is the Outback Steakhouse song. Poor Kevin. Those bastards told him it would likely only be used for a radio jingle, not the entire fucking identity of the company. It's still a great song though, the original.

Other magazine subscriptions that I need in addition to Wired, Print, and Communication Arts (all of which I adore):
HOW
Layers - I hate the idea of getting a lame-o "photoshop tips" mag, but I guess I need to learn that stuff somehow
I.D.
Computer Arts

And enough rambling, I really need to go to bed now. :P

P.S. I like my church. I like that it doesn't really look or feel like a church. I don't think I could go somewhere with actual pew benches. Just, no.

I've found a new waaaay, Well I've found a new way baby...

2008-11-21T01:12:53Z

AAAAREOSJRGLKDFBNKGHYSKFJSLGKSLA!!!!!!!!

Yes, that sums up my day.

I'm about to run out and go panic shop for a dress to wear IN my best friend's wedding. I am full of hate for whoever made my dress not arrive yet. Probably my own self, but it's easier to hate the faceless UPS man. Sonuvabitch.

I'm thinking find a flowy black skirt, cut a few yards of black lacy material for a shawl, get some dark eye shadow, add my lacy arm thingys, and my non-goth red top should work.

Picking up Laura tonight! Yahhhh!

I can't wait till these fucking holidays are OVER. I have SO MUCH CRAP TO DO.

"For those about to party" indeed!

2008-11-15T20:23:20Z

Aw yeah, bitches! Just ordered tix to see of Montreal on New Years Eve in Athens with Joe, Krissy & Sam. For once I will have a fun New Years Eve instead of just sitting around watching TV/playing on computer. Huzzah!!

NEW YEARS EVE WITH OF MONTREAL

2008-11-14T08:52:43Z

Anyone want to go with me to Athens, GA and ring in the new year with of Montreal?? Anyone??? :DDD

I love Jon Stewart.

2008-11-07T20:54:01Z

cibeleanjo @ 2008-11-05T22:33:00

2008-11-06T04:33:32Z

of Montreal is playing in Atlanta on Saturday night.

*makes incoherent grinding sounds with her teeth*

Turning tricks on the hood of Jasmine's car...

2008-11-05T01:55:43Z

Part of me wishes we were still living in CA so I could vote against Prop 8. Damn Mormons. I like Jon Stewart's response: Who better than a Mormon to push for a law that defines marriage as between one man and one....oh. Hmm.

I'm going to help another student who's getting the Gay Straight Alliance started back up at AUM. Go me! Hope I won't be a total pussy.

And from now on, I'm subscribing to chaodai's brand of Christianity. This is the creative mind behind the lovely Middleman show/comic.

Hey boys, which one of you is a real man?

2008-11-02T05:17:28Z

Ok I just nearly pissed myself laughing at the episode of QaF when Michael walked up to his coworkers at the gay pride parade, stunning in his drag attire, and hit on his icky boss. Oh my, I love this show...

In other news, I went to a video conference at AUM today put on by the Yes Institute, about gender & orientation and supporting youth who deal with various issues related to it. I was kind of unsure about it, and barely made the registration deadline, but I had the feeling that I would be really glad if I went, and I totally am. I got to see some local people who are interested in GLBT issues, such as a couple of Episcopal priests and a Unitarian minister, and a guy from Pflag Bham, and a bunch of other random people in the community and school system. I also learned that AUM's Gay-Straight Alliance is finally starting back up, after a sort of lapse since the former leaders graduated out, so I'm thinking about getting involved there. And the conference itself was really good, and I learned more than I thought I would. I learned the value of good, open communication, and I really need to check out their seminar on communication. They got to do a session on gender & orientation for this athlete guy in Miami (I don't know his name, I'm not into sports you know) that said all these inflammatory, homophobic things about this one gay athlete, and afterwards he got really interested and really changed his attitude about gay people. We also talked about the difference between gender and sexual orientation, which I'd never thought of. I was totally filling up my tiny notebook with the new information I was learning.

I can't remember which of you lovelies recommended Of Montreal for me, but I got "Skeletal Lamping" and it is one of the weirdest, most schizophrenic things I've ever heard. I'm totally addicted.

Thou shalt always kill.

2008-10-31T05:18:10Z

I haven't cosplayed since Anime Expo 06, so it has been really fun putting my Dexter costume together. =D I'm doing "night time Dexter," so I've got my grey thermal shirt & dark pants, black hefty bags, electric drill, clear plastic face shield, white apron & fake blood to splatter all over it. XDD I'm wondering about the best way to splatter said blood. Perhaps hang the apron outside and fling my paintbrush at it? I love to make splatters. I should definitely have a few practice tries though. The only thing I'm missing from my ensemble is a good fake butcher knife. I have not seen any thus far. Sadness!

I still love this song.
Thou shalt not question Stephen Fry.
Thou shalt not wish your girlfriend was a freak like me. (If I have to listen to that song one more time at Kohl's...)

Straddling the bar like it's a quarter a ride...

2008-10-24T04:13:07Z

This has become very important to me. It isn't about aligning myself with the left and distancing myself from the right (at least not all of it, hehe). I'm not pushing an agenda for my own greed. I admit I would rather associate with this group than the alternative, but I don't believe it's all about that because in this case, either side could potentially cause shy little me a great deal of discomfort at some point. There is just this feeling I can't shake, a tugging at my heart. A stabbing in my gut when I think about Jesus going to those who were outcast, defiled, unclean, unwanted. He reached out his fingers and touched people that no one else would come near. This is a group that has literally been shut out of the church. It doesn't get much more anti-Jesus than that. I guarantee you He wouldn't be sitting with his ass resting on a pew cushion while there were other people outside, completely shunned and stigmatized by those in the pews around Him. I have to believe it this way. It's the difference between a life of bondage and a life of freedom & love. It's spending your whole life, every moment of every day, trying to change who you are, change the way you feel on a very primal level; vs. believing you were created intentionally, in His very image, every detail, every idiosyncrasy, that He appreciates all of it, and loves all of it, and you are a gift and unique and special and amazing. It's the difference between feeling like you will never be right, never get it right, and feeling the unconditional love of a spouse, only the kind that will never divorce you or tell you it's all your fault or give up on you. I could be waxing melodramatic here, but if I have learned anything from my life up till now, it's all of this. I just can't go back to the way I was. I know I have to turn my overactive intellectualism off sometimes and let my gut guide me. My acrylic designs sucked while I was overanalyzing them; I had to let go and let my creative intuition guide me. Sometimes you have to go with what feels right, because maybe it is. Don't discount the feeling of love when it swells up in your chest. We are longing for something...

When you're a boy, other boys check you out...

2008-10-22T05:00:27Z

Okay. The uneducation of Robin regarding David Bowie must come to an end. I just discovered he did "Boys Keep Swinging." And now I must ask for musical recommendations on *where* to start in my quest for enlightenment about this great man. This is something I've been meaning to do for a while, and now it is time. Please...just one EP name, that's all I need....

How does it feel like, to wake up in the sun?

2008-10-22T02:46:24Z

Oh my gods...this music is really taking me back. The Sneaker Pimps and the Chemical Brothers? Wow. Just wow. Music can always take me back to times and places I've long forgotten.

Just watched the scene where Brian bowled a strike (to the Chemical Bros' "Let Forever Be") and then kissed Michael right in front of the rednecks who were previously jeering at the "fairies." Oh be still my heart. That was beautiful. I just have to love Brian. Nearly fearless and damned honest to a fault. The bastard.

I really need to go to bed and *not* stay up watching the last 3 episodes of the season. Right. Damn this being responsible.

painty painty painty...

2008-10-18T03:51:00Z

Augh. My legs are so stiff from sitting and painting for the last few hours. =_=;; This is going to take forr-ever. At least I'm making more progress than yesterday. I swear I basically just sat and stared at my blank paper for the duration of the class period. :P My prof wasn't helping. That man...does anyone know a good racial slur for a Scot? I need something to scream in my head occasionally.

cibeleanjo @ 2008-10-15T18:29:00

2008-10-15T23:31:27Z

Just update my profile. I think I must not have looked at it in, like, 10 years. Wow. And maybe in another 10 I will finally get a new LJ layout. ^_^

Take yo mama out...

2008-10-14T03:25:17Z

Downloading the Scissor Sisters' first album. Tomorrow's classes will be full of fabulous disco and prettyboy falsetto.

cibeleanjo @ 2008-10-02T21:48:00

2008-10-03T02:48:32Z

Today I had a good morning. It was one of those mornings where you feel like you've made some sort of breakthrough and now the world seems like a better place, a more hopeful place. I felt like God loved everyone so much, and it was so full, and so beautiful, and it made me want to love everyone too. Some people claim that if we thought God loved us too much, we might go crazy and start sinning all over the place, murder, rape, pillage, you know. But it wasn't like that. I wanted to give myself away. I felt so full, I wanted to share it. If someone had come up to my Fit at the light and asked for my beloved cranberry juice, I would have smiled and handed it over. (If you know me and how much I love juice, this should astonish you.) It was so nice, though, to feel warm and welcoming, instead of fearful and avoidant. I was starting to wonder if I would ever get any of my old spirit back. Of course, these fuzzy moments can't last forever, but I do think I'm on my way to liking people again. :)

I'll never forget Alan walking around my high school in a skirt...

2008-10-02T05:39:26Z

I'm all reminiscy tonight. I miss you, all my old friends, the ones who were such a bad influence on me. :) You know who you are. Subverting innocent little robins and making them dress up like goths and filling their heads with poisonous thoughts such as "omg maybe God doesn't hate fags after all." Pure evil is all you are. ;D

Love you. :)

cibeleanjo @ 2008-09-24T19:59:00

2008-09-25T01:00:49Z

I want the Adobe CS4 Master Collection. What I would do with all of that, I'm not entirely sure yet, but I would do something.

cibeleanjo @ 2008-09-19T01:29:00

2008-09-19T06:29:17Z

I love Thursday nights. The only time I can stay up doing whatever I feel like. :D My own little weekend.

cibeleanjo @ 2008-08-28T23:09:00

2008-08-29T04:11:53Z

So Liz and I went to "goth night" at club 322. It was alright, aside from the drunken rednecks who still managed to find their way inside. We didn't stay too long, being old now and stuff. I think it would be more fun if we went with a bigger group of friends. I don't like being approached by 14-year-olds or creepy guys trying to pick me up.